Mother

Mother

I can’t deal with this pain I feel
I don’t want you in my life
I’d rater live my life alone
Than deal with your stress
I’m tired of the sickness
I’m tired of walking on eggshells
Since I was a child, I’ve kept one eye open
Waiting, waiting, waiting
Praying that tonight would not be that night
When your cold maternal hands wrap around me as I sleep
When I no longer have a single breath
Then you look at me as I gasp for air
With smiles and then with tears
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry” is all you say
As if that heals my wounds

My feet are bruised and bloody
I can walk here no more
The ground around all you touch decays
In your quest for gold
As a child I’ve needed you
But now I have grown old

Goodbye my mother
I want to say I am sorry
But I never will be
The bad outweighs the good
I want to sleep and rest in peace
Safely in safety
If you love me as you say you do
Then leave my side
Leave me and never look my way again

Halloween and the tall (man?)

This has been a very difficult month for us, Eric died, Ty was sick and we've both been jobless. Charlie is getting his old job back and I have more interviews lined up this week.

Here was my update..

Here was the party..

Here was what happened later that night. I'm still trying to process what happened...